SMITTEN

Me.

CONFESSION:

I had an anxiety in Graduation.

Aside from being apart from my long time friends and from the impending new chapter that is about to face…I fear that my parents will see a different side of me. A side of me that I never disclose in front of them. Though it somehow shows and translates through my actions, I think that they still haven’ fully accepted it. They know it but at the back of their mind they want me to change, to fight my differences and of course, for me to be happy and have a normal proper life. This path I am taking right now is not normal. This is improper. And it sucks because I CAN’T DO ANYTHING about it. It’s ME. It’s what I’ve BECOME. It’s an IRREVERSIBLE matter. I am still unsure and puzzled on what should I do but for now I’m just going to let time and God dictates what will happen. But seriously, looking forward to it at this point in time…it really scare the shit out of me. I hope everything will be fine as that time comes.

The Perks of Being a Homosexual

CONFESSION:

Everyone have that secret admiration towards someone. I’ve kept mine for years. Hehe. I feel like my heart wants to burst and shout because of my silence when I’m having a moment with that person. Even his slightest touch and dashing gaze makes me freakishly uneasy and nervous. It’s a good thing anyway that all these thoughts and emotions is left unsaid, that way, I won’t be able to experience rejection (although I can already feel and see it coming—harsh reality).

I like what we have now. I like that there’s no prejudgement by all my actions, there’s no awkwardness felt by him towards me and besides, I find it thrilling to look afar and admire, to catch glimpse of his face whenever he’s not looking, to show fondness behind our little interactions, to be that secret guardian angel and helper whenever he’s in need..It may seem silly and unrequited but secretly liking someone is one of the best feeling I had and for me, the strongest kind of love. No expectations. I don’t care if my feelings won’t be reciprocated. That person’s happiness is what counts. I feel like my happiness is tied and chained between his smiles. :) ♥

I WANT YOU SO BAD! >.<

CONFESSIONS:

As each days passes by, our friendship is growing closer. CLOSER THAN we ever had. Whew!

P.S. I love the hug, it’s my first time to hug and have physical body contact with you.

Two-faced conceited bitch

People who try to fish for sympathy on social network are far worse than those people who wronged them. Bitch please. Anong gusto mo? We’ll feel sorry for you? Pati problema mo gusto mong problemahin din namin! Instead of whining your ass off and insinuating other people: mind your problems, do something about it & confront it in your own. Freak! 

John Michael (anJOHN ‘pag MICHAELangan)

CONFESSION:

Maybe you’re only being nice because you needed me.

Maybe I am the only one who got what you wanted.

Maybe you didn’t really care.

Maybe you thought I was so into you so you want to took advantage of it.

Maybe you don’t really like none of us at all and you are using everyone to your benefit.

Maybe I’m not really one of your dearest friend in your mind.

Maybe I’m just a random classmate to you.

Maybe you don’t actually give a damn to what I think.

Maybe it’s not of a big deal to you on how you’re making me feel right now if you would knew.

Maybe you’re not interested to knew every thoughts I have in you at all and if you probably knew you would just ignore.

Maybe’s. So maaany maybe’s. The only thing I’m sure of is no matter how doubtful I am at you or no matter how exaggerated I may feel (in your perspective and to everyone’s)…

I still like you.

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I still want you.

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Untitled Heartbreak

CONFESSION:

Yuh. Nasasaktan din talaga ako kasi we don’t have that kind of relationship. Although mas frequent kami mag-sama, I feel like it’s a bit formal…Well, I’m hoping na you’ll have your happily ever after kasi I root for the both of you. Kahit ang unpredictable nung guy. Asshole.