Freudian Slips
CONFESSION:
These past few days, I’ve encountered certain instances where my feelings that’s ought to be expressed were deeply repressed. DEEP DEEP down at the bottom of my system. It’s hard to show up everyday having this feeling of jealousy killing me slowly, slow enough to create that torture feeling that cuts deep. It makes me wanna distant myself to that source of this feeling but I just simply can’t. Even if I close my eyes, I can hear it. Even if I plug my earphones on, I can sense it. It couldn’t be any worse but I just can’t stop thinking about it.
I incorrectly hear my classmate uttering words that seem to unconsciously speaks my genuine feeling at the moment where in fact, the thing she is saying is FAR from what I mistakenly heard. Then I realized I’ve been experiencing things we studied in our Theory of Personality class, one of our major subject this semester, the term is called Incorrect Hearing, a factor to be considered in Freudian Slips. It felt like knowing my chosen field, which is Psychology, can be so useful at facing problems or dilemmas, but sometimes it can be mockingly annoying. Where sometimes I really know what I feel but I don’t want to admit it in myself and yet I still ended up frustrated, trying to undo undesirable feelings, attempting to escape the unwanted terms and still falling into that label, just because I know Psychology.
